Rainsea

You have all heard of the new revolution in moving picture. Ever since the TV was invented, people can watch moving pictures instead of going into a cinema. I must say that movies in the early 20th century is odd. They speak abnormal and their characters are not really that believable. I am so glad that nowadays people would put real personality into characters of moving pictures. According to what I was told, on the 17 February 2009, which is a month from now :/, our analog TV will all switch to digital. I supposed they decided the switch together and time and date for it as well. This is certainly well plan.

My mother and I went to Best Buy yesterday to pick up this DTV converter box. We did not get any coupon from the government. Perhaps it have been lost in the mail. If we do get a chance to get it, we can take $40 off or they return our $40. This box cost $49.99 before tax. It was the cheapest in the store. We did not set it up but certainly we are ready for the switch. But while my mother was picking that box up, I was sitting on a chair at Best Buy. I saw all these TV. Our family hadn't brought a single TV in ages. We still have these small bulky television in our living room and kitchen. But at Best Buy, those flat screen and HDTV. They were garantum. Huge. Something that will never fit in my house. The smallest screen I saw was a 32". Still too big for me. Ahhh...

This is AT&T new Pantech Matrix. After a month of in the hospital and weeks staying at home, I finally went and brought this. I brought the red one. This is their quick messenging  phone. It's pretty nice. Unfortunately, as it is, I have to wait for another week until I can pick up this phone because their red pantech matrix was not in stock. Oh well, another week but that's okay.

Now I have an Unlimited Web/Text plan so I can talk to NamSze. Haha. Well, other people too. But I put it on my phone only because my Yahoo messenger does not register hotmail accounts and most of my friends seemed to be on MSN for some reason. I transfered them into Yahoo but I guess you can't do that on the phone. Mmmmm. So I will be using MSN on my phone and Yahoo on my PC.

World CARP is a youth organisation that I had registered last year. I did pretty well and was planning more until I fell ill with Leukemia and had me in the hospital since. Having only one semester left, I could and could not start CARP again. I find that having only a semester left to be useless. CARP is no longer registered as a club on campus and its email and web account cancel. I daresay that the website I've worked so hard into making have disappeared, never seen again unless someone decides to make it. I've learn that there are a few persons from our community that now goes to San Francisco State. Lovely that they do, but will they start CARP? Will they be committed to this? If they are not, I have no desire to start it again. I'll just return to my school work and finish my degree. Whatever that may be....

Yesterday when I went out, walking mostly, I felt dizzy. I supposed it is common for my sort of illness. I always tend to feel dizzy. But being in a car/bus, I am numb to that dizziness. I really do not know the cause but once in a while, I had to sit down, drink, or do something to relieve that tension.

I have brought premium for this site. More storage space/bandwidth. No ads. Mmmmm.... nice. And I've posted a new album, thanks to the storage space I now have.

For the past few days I haveen looking at adoption sites - petfinder or adoptapet.com or virtual pet adoptions. All these are wonderful site for adoption and they help you find a pet of your choice. Most, if not all, those adoptees (let say the pets waiting for adoption) are spayed/neutered, microchipped (so they could be return to its owner if ever they are lost), and have been tested for Leukemia and whatever feline illness they had. I was looking only towards the kittens because it is my hope that I receive a kitten one day....one day soon or one day later. I hope the former rather than the latter, but whichever, I will take care of it well.  So I was looking through these adoption ads and the beautiful and cute pictures of those adoptees. I wanted a kitty that I have not seen in the streets (in my area, we have many stray and feral cats running around the streets and some finds home, while others do not).

I am thus tired of getting stray cats for pets. They are cheap. They cost nothing. But they are walking diseases from the time of their birth because they have been in the outdoors. I have learn much about raising cats these recent days and have learn that what I had normally practiced were wrong and will only lead to a cat's death. I have had a cat who refused to eat, his body became very cold, and he died. We never knew the cause but there are so many harmful and poisonous things in the outdoors that we should never take our cats outside. Cats should live at home but even that, we have to make it cat-safe because many of the things can make a cat ill. So to my point, I am tired of raising stray cats only to find them hurt in some way or form, leaving us, and disappearing. I am tired of that and so I wanted to adopt. In my previous entry, I said I did not want to adopt but I change my mind. Adopting is actually cheap and it is saving the lives of tens of thousands of homeless pets waiting for a home.

Home At Last is a non-profit organisation that is helping homeless pets find a loving home. They first rescue them and then put them in a loving home. In order to ensure they have a loving home, they have the applicant answer some questionaires about their living condition/situation and about how we would take care of our little friends. Within those two days, I filled it out but unfortunately I have no idea when I can adopt these cute furry friends. I really want a kitty but my situation as I am ill and my immune system is poor, a kitty would not be completely safe with me. But I do like cats and I do wish to join with them. Ahhh one day. Home At Last is a non-profit organisation that I support and that I will go to if I am ready to adopt.

Anthony and I have made an agreement that we both adopt a kitty together, I want a girl! Then our kitty would come and play with each other. It would so awesome and fun but his kitty has to be older than mine because he's older...haha. I sort of want a cat with blue eyes for some reason. They look so pretty. I had a lot of yellow eyes cat so it would be nice for a change of eye colour. Umm... thinking of this future too much.

Yesterday, I went out....by myself. It's not a safe thing to do especially in my condition. I began to buy stuff for my kitty. This is a collar and will look so cute in my future kitty. What do you think? I do think so. It's different also because elastic and it fits for all the kitty. I brought it at Petco and I became its member. Pretty sweet, eh? I fancy that the next time I will buy something for my kitty would be after my transplant.

Talking about Transplant. I've talked to Sandra. I have not talked to her for such a long time and I told her that I'm to have a bone marrow transplant at Stanford. I hope their food is better there. I hate smelly fish. I sound like "I hate green eggs and ham." She affirm to me that I am in remission - the third and final phrase. I just hope I may not go into a relapse.

We move forward. I cannot tell you where exactly we are going or heading, only that we are heading forward or rather I am.:/ I have not read anything since I finished Sara Douglass and when I think of finishing Narnia, I felt unable to. Well, isn't that a predicament. rolleyes Oh well! Narnia isn't a really good book after what I've read, at least stylistically. As a creative writing major, I look and admired writers using description, perhaps because I am a discriptive writer myself.

I don't want to make a jest of myself but this seemed like the best picture I could find. And I supposed it's fabled in such a strange way. So I went to the Hem-Onc clinc today, my appointment was at 1pm. And so I've waited in the room for such a long time, holding with me a letter from the social worker that I believe they would not accept. It is for people who cannot be safely home and I think I will be. While I was waiting for Dr. Irwin to finally tell me the news, I was thinking of when I get better I'll get a cat. A kitten from a pet store. I've talked to Anthony about it last night.

Since the first cat I've ever own, they all have been stray cats even if they came to our door as kitten. I have such poor luck with them. One of my favourite, Luna, my father abandoned along with the two kittens. Another one walked away from us because we started to own dogs. Then after years of owning dogs and not cats, the pair of cats came to our doors. My father fed them and they began to accept us. Although the orange tabby never seemed to accept us wholly. He died shortly after, refusing to eat. That cat somehow became ill. Then the little Panther, my last cat that I've own, disappeared. He had disappeared over a year. So you can tell I am so tired of stray cats because they either die, disappeared, and ran away. I don't like it.! mad When I get better and my immune system is well enough to breathe fur 24/7, I want to get a cat, a kitten, from a pet store. I don't want to adopt a cat from SPCA because they rescue stray cats too. I want one that is not stray and a kitten. Young cat. Small. I don't want one in the shelter either. I want one from a pet store...but where can I find a pet store? Hmmm? Well, I'm sure I'll find one and I'll get a cute little kitty. A girl maybe. I already thought of a name for it. It will have a Chinese name (Siu Yuet) and an English name (Moon). They both mean the same thing.

Petco sell this pet stroller. I would want it for my kitty when it is time for me to receive her. This pet stroller, I can take anywhere. I can take my kitty for a stroll around my neighbourbood or go to doctor visit. I want to really take care of my kitty's health. I can even take her to a pet supply store like PetSmart or PetCo. She would love it! And I can give it food while I eat at a restraunt. I was thinking of putting a what do you call it, blanket in it for comfort and a toy for her to play. And maybe I can let her run about and play in a park or at a beach. And I can visit friends taking this stroller. I can go to San Francisco with it, haha. Oh, the possibility is unlimited. Curse the doctors for keeping me alone and making me day-dream about when I get better I want to get a cat. :o So anyway, Dr. Irwin tells me that my blood count is good and that I need a bone marrow transplant. It is so the luekemia will not return. He'll send me to Stanford hospital, first for the consultation, of course. It is an hour south of here, he says. And he tells me my Leukemia is rare. Next time I should ask what or how is it rare.

Yesterday, while I was eating with my family, my father voiced his opinion as always. I can understand that through what a certain group did, he held resentment and hate towards that group and generalised them as criminals. Oh, when would the world see people for who they are, giving them the chance to be human. We are humans are we not? We have flaws, do we not? Even in the ideal world, I happen to think that we still have flaws. We make mistakes and we learn from them and we grow from them. But to generalise is a fallacy- nay! worse - a folly. I do hate how my father generalise. It pains my heart when he would say that all a certain type of people is criminal. In Oakland, that certain people, to my belief, should not represent themselves thus. But how is it that one have such overwhelming and ever- consuming hate and resentment for that what they did and criminalised the entire population of that race. He even think Obama is of that generalisation but isn't there such people as the polite class that practice not of that habit? Ahhh, to me, that is ridiculous. I don't understand. How do you get rid of hate? They say, God is love. How can that love subjugate or override that hate that consume human beings. We act upon our father's emotion, surely.

Remember this wonderful site? It was a nice networking site until everyone moved to facebook and Xanga is led to compete with facebook and other networking and blogging community. I have decided finally that from henceforth I would cancel its account. I am giving them ten days from this day to migrate to here. They may join or bookmark or visit here. It matters me not. And after that I will wholly get rid of Xanga account, moving forward with this one.

I've made serveral pages. Some with members benefit and others without. So if you want to access/view these pages, I would suggest you join.