Rainsea

We move forward. I cannot tell you where exactly we are going or heading, only that we are heading forward or rather I am.:/ I have not read anything since I finished Sara Douglass and when I think of finishing Narnia, I felt unable to. Well, isn't that a predicament. rolleyes Oh well! Narnia isn't a really good book after what I've read, at least stylistically. As a creative writing major, I look and admired writers using description, perhaps because I am a discriptive writer myself.

I don't want to make a jest of myself but this seemed like the best picture I could find. And I supposed it's fabled in such a strange way. So I went to the Hem-Onc clinc today, my appointment was at 1pm. And so I've waited in the room for such a long time, holding with me a letter from the social worker that I believe they would not accept. It is for people who cannot be safely home and I think I will be. While I was waiting for Dr. Irwin to finally tell me the news, I was thinking of when I get better I'll get a cat. A kitten from a pet store. I've talked to Anthony about it last night.

Since the first cat I've ever own, they all have been stray cats even if they came to our door as kitten. I have such poor luck with them. One of my favourite, Luna, my father abandoned along with the two kittens. Another one walked away from us because we started to own dogs. Then after years of owning dogs and not cats, the pair of cats came to our doors. My father fed them and they began to accept us. Although the orange tabby never seemed to accept us wholly. He died shortly after, refusing to eat. That cat somehow became ill. Then the little Panther, my last cat that I've own, disappeared. He had disappeared over a year. So you can tell I am so tired of stray cats because they either die, disappeared, and ran away. I don't like it.! mad When I get better and my immune system is well enough to breathe fur 24/7, I want to get a cat, a kitten, from a pet store. I don't want to adopt a cat from SPCA because they rescue stray cats too. I want one that is not stray and a kitten. Young cat. Small. I don't want one in the shelter either. I want one from a pet store...but where can I find a pet store? Hmmm? Well, I'm sure I'll find one and I'll get a cute little kitty. A girl maybe. I already thought of a name for it. It will have a Chinese name (Siu Yuet) and an English name (Moon). They both mean the same thing.

Petco sell this pet stroller. I would want it for my kitty when it is time for me to receive her. This pet stroller, I can take anywhere. I can take my kitty for a stroll around my neighbourbood or go to doctor visit. I want to really take care of my kitty's health. I can even take her to a pet supply store like PetSmart or PetCo. She would love it! And I can give it food while I eat at a restraunt. I was thinking of putting a what do you call it, blanket in it for comfort and a toy for her to play. And maybe I can let her run about and play in a park or at a beach. And I can visit friends taking this stroller. I can go to San Francisco with it, haha. Oh, the possibility is unlimited. Curse the doctors for keeping me alone and making me day-dream about when I get better I want to get a cat. :o So anyway, Dr. Irwin tells me that my blood count is good and that I need a bone marrow transplant. It is so the luekemia will not return. He'll send me to Stanford hospital, first for the consultation, of course. It is an hour south of here, he says. And he tells me my Leukemia is rare. Next time I should ask what or how is it rare.

Yesterday, while I was eating with my family, my father voiced his opinion as always. I can understand that through what a certain group did, he held resentment and hate towards that group and generalised them as criminals. Oh, when would the world see people for who they are, giving them the chance to be human. We are humans are we not? We have flaws, do we not? Even in the ideal world, I happen to think that we still have flaws. We make mistakes and we learn from them and we grow from them. But to generalise is a fallacy- nay! worse - a folly. I do hate how my father generalise. It pains my heart when he would say that all a certain type of people is criminal. In Oakland, that certain people, to my belief, should not represent themselves thus. But how is it that one have such overwhelming and ever- consuming hate and resentment for that what they did and criminalised the entire population of that race. He even think Obama is of that generalisation but isn't there such people as the polite class that practice not of that habit? Ahhh, to me, that is ridiculous. I don't understand. How do you get rid of hate? They say, God is love. How can that love subjugate or override that hate that consume human beings. We act upon our father's emotion, surely.

Remember this wonderful site? It was a nice networking site until everyone moved to facebook and Xanga is led to compete with facebook and other networking and blogging community. I have decided finally that from henceforth I would cancel its account. I am giving them ten days from this day to migrate to here. They may join or bookmark or visit here. It matters me not. And after that I will wholly get rid of Xanga account, moving forward with this one.

I've made serveral pages. Some with members benefit and others without. So if you want to access/view these pages, I would suggest you join.